Today’s KIOS prompt invited us to share or first blog post. I had no idea it would be this sad for me.
Oh how bittersweet it is to my first blog post which introduced BabyGrrrl, my little pup whom I shared 8 years of my life with. She was a handful, but I loved every bit of her. I learned how to keep her safe, and did my best to keep others safe as well. (On that note, when you see a cute dog and their guardian tells you “Do not pet her, she will try to bite you. By all means don’t pet the dog. ) I felt so honored that she trusted me with her fearful heart and let me get close to her in ways that others were not allowed to.
In 2010 my world turned upside down due to battling an illness that altered my work, living arrangements, and income. I could no longer care for BabyGrrrl the way she needed. I know with all my heart that dogs, cats, and other companion animals are forever. You don’t get rid of them when they are inconvenient. In my case, I knew that I was the inconvenience to BabyGrrrl. It was a hard decision to have BabyGrrrl live with my dad, and I also had some comfort in knowing that BabyGrrrl liked my dad who was retired and could dedicate more companion time for her. My goal is to get better (which I have) and get financially stable (in process) enough to have her live with me again.
So yeah, *sniff* this was an unexpectedly bitter-sweet post.
Visit the first blog post here, or read it below.
I first met BabyGrrrl in 1999. I was home from college when I met the 6-month old BabyGrrrl. She was the only pup left from a litter that my family’s dog had. She was intensely shy (hence her name “Baby”) and was overwhelmed when people looked at her or approached her. When they did, she would immediately roll over or go hide in the dog house. As a Psychology major, I was immediately drawn to her and wanted to work with her. I wanted to help socialize her.I wanted to take her to the beach, but getting her to trust me enough to put her in the car was difficult. She was so scared. But we managed and once we arrived at the beach she was another dog all together. She ran, was digging, barking, and overall just playing. From that moment on, me and her bonded.Her first walks in the neighborhood were choppy. She thought she ruled the neighborhood but once we turned the corner to the busy main street she froze.She was also scared of many family members for a long time. It many exposures to someone in order for her to trust them. Overall each day was a great improvement and I was so proud of her.When school started and I had to moved back to Washington, I was so sad at leaving her. I couldn’t take her with me because of my living situation there. Before I left I had her spayed to prevent more litters. Every time I came home to visit I took her to the vet, worked with a little more and each time she was so much better.I finally moved back in 2002 and immediately bonded with her again. I adopted her and altered her name to BabyGrrrl. In caring for her, I soon realized that her shyness wasn’t an issue. Instead she was aggressive! Not with me, but with other people and dogs. She is what many trainers we worked with call fearful aggressive. This made sense since she wasn’t socialized with people or dogs as a pup. My minor visits were not enough nor were they consistent.This continues to be an issue, and I have worked with SO MANY trainers and behaviorists, but there has been little improvement no matter what techniques I implement. Overall she is great one on one with people she trusts. She’s amazing, smart, and loving. But once she is in the outside world – anyone’s ankles are fair game.I have also learned that Baby is NOT a hugger. Like people, not everyone is social, or likes to hug their “hello’s”. This is BabyGrrrl. With dogs, she is very picky on who she will play with. Other dogs CANNOT sniff her butt, and as far as she’s concerned, she can sniff whoever she wants. In short she is a bully.So with Minnie in our family now things are interesting.After 5 months BabyGrrrl still does not like her. She won’t play with her and insists on trying to put her in her place. She picks fights and won’t back off. She punks her all the time like a boxer before a fight.As long as they stay out of each others way, and Minnie allows her to call the shots, things are safe. I could be totally projecting here, but my guess is that BabyGrrrl is jealous of Minnie. I mean who wouldn’t be. Minnie is younger, taller, and skinnier.